It never occurred to me that if one word from him could make me so happy, another could just as easily crush me, that if I didn’t want to be unhappy, I should learn to beware of such small joys as well.
 
我从来没想过，如果他的一句话让我如此幸福，另一句话也能同样轻易击垮我。如果我不想落个不幸，我也应该学会提防这小小的喜悦。
 
But on that same night I used the heady elation of the moment to speak to Marzia. We danced past midnight, then I walked her back by way of the shore. Then we stopped. I said I was tempted to take a quick swim, expecting she would hold me back. But she said she too loved swimming at night. Our clothes were off in a second. “You’re not with me because you’re angry with Chiara?”
“Why am I angry with Chiara?”
“Because of him.”
I shook my head, feigning a puzzled look meant to show that I couldn’t begin to guess where she’d fished such a notion from.
 
但当天晚上，我就趁着当下那点令人飘飘然的得意欢欣和玛琪雅闲聊起来。我们跳舞跳到午夜之后，然后沿着海岸送她回家。我们在半路停下来。我说我很想游会儿泳，以为她要阻止我，她却说她也很喜欢在夜里游泳。我们立刻脱掉衣服。“你不是因为生奇亚拉的气才跟我在一起的吧？”
“我为什么生奇亚拉的气？”
“因为他呀。”
我摇摇头，装出一脸困惑的样子，表示我搞不懂她怎么有这种想法。
 
She asked me to turn around and not stare while she used her sweater to towel her body dry. I pretended to sneak a clandestine glance, but was too obedient not to do as I was told. I didn’t dare ask her not to look when I put my clothes on but was glad she looked the other way. When we were no longer naked, I took her hand and kissed her on the palm, then kissed the space between her fingers, then her mouth. She was slow to kiss me back, but then she didn’t want to stop.
 
她要我转过身去，别趁她用运动衫擦干身子时盯着她看，我假装偷瞄一眼，但因为太听话还是照着她的话做。轮到我穿衣服的时候，我不敢要求她别看，不过她撇开眼去我倒是很高兴。等我们穿好衣服后，我牵起她的手吻了她的掌心，然后吻她手指之间的地方，再吻她的嘴。她没有立即回吻我，可是接着她就不想停下来了。
 
We were to meet at the same spot on the beach the following evening. I’d be there before her, I said.
“Just don’t tell anyone,” she said.
I motioned that my mouth was zipped shut.
 
第二天傍晚，我们打算在海边同一个地点见面。我会比她早到，我说。
“不要告诉别人。”她说。
我作势把嘴巴拉上拉链。